I haven't written about my journey in a few days. I have posted other articles but not my own writing about changing my life. It's funny, the one time I write a post saying I'm going to write everyday and then I realize I need a break. It's funny how things never go as expected. Maybe, I need to not set expectations. When I set up too many expectations - I set myself up for failure. I will just go with the flow. Whatever I'm feeling.
This week I made a promise to myself to start putting myself first. I realize that I care too much what others think. I spend too much time worrying about others. I feel guilt if I can't do everything for everyone. I realize how unhealthy this is. I also realize most of the world doesn't work that way. Most people put themselves first. They do what they need to do. They don't stop and think of others. They don't mean to hurt people but they do for themselevs first and then think. I was the opposite. I think of others and then myself. I don't want to do that anymore. I want to be more selfish. I used to think selfish was a bad word I now feel completely different. I think if I would of been a little more selfish - I would be happier. I feel that people with a strong sense of self are selfish. They put themselves on the top of their to-do list. Something I always admired but couldn't get myself to do. I teach it to others. I know how important it is but it's easier to tell others then to do yourself. This is why I teach :)
I will now practice what I preach. I will put myself first. I added in positive affirmations to my daily rituals.
It states: I'm important, I care about myself. I will put myself first.
That is my new mantra. I will take care of me. I know deep down I'm not a selfish person in the bad sense but I don't think it would hurt to just become a little more self-centered.