This may sound dumb - I want to blog but I don't know how. Why can't I blog? I can spend hours just looking at twittermom profiles. Jumping from blog to blog. I feel inspired by the stories I read. So today I decided I am going to just type. Here it goes:

I am going to start off with a little about me. I am 37 years old. I had my first daughter at the age of 20.Two years later, I had my second daughter. Four years later, I had my son. After my son, I decided to shut the baby factory down.Let me tell you, as hard as that decision was, today I am very thankful I did it.

My husband and I met in high school and believe it or not we are still married. As every relationship, we have our ups and downs. I hope as we grow old together the ups will be more often then the downs.

I use to tell myself when the kids were 2, 4 and 6 just hang in there it will get easier as they get older. I thought carrying diaper bags and strollers, change of clothes, temper tantrums in the mall - was so challenging!! Well, I wish someone would have told me - enjoy the small problems cause when they become teenagers you become the taxi driver, you become uncool and dumb. No one told me my hair would turn gray and that I would loose it. And all this at 37! So young.

There is no manual on how to raise teenage girls. Each child has their own personality. I wish I could go to the library and check a manual for each daughter. Book one would say how to raise a stubborn, super focused, perfectionist who acts like she is 34 instead of 14. I would also check out how to raise a unfocused, hormone happy, loddy doddy 16 year old. My son by the way, so far he is an angel. (I say this in whisper - I don't want to speak to loudly and jinx myself)

And to make things more interesting, I decided to return back to college to get my BA degree. School should be a piece of cake compared to parenting. I work as a paralegal and my fantastic company is paying for my education. I have to take advantage of the opporutnity, especially in this economy. I also hope to be a role model for my kids. You can do anything you want at any time in your life. (I prefer they do school then family)

This is going to be a real challenging year. Working full time, college almost full time, 3 active kids and one special husband. My 16 year old is a junior and we must begin college preparations. Now, she is the laid back child so mom will have to do lots of nagging.

As much as it sounds like I am complaining, I would do everything the same if I had a chance to do it over. I was blessed with my 3 kids. I feel as though we are all going up together. We fight, slam doors, cry, laugh, and every memory we make is ours.

Ok, so I don't know if I did this blog thing right. I do know I have things to share too. I want to record my memories so one day when I look back at the year I turned 37, I can say "What the heck were you thinking??"

Signing Off ....