I'm pregnant right now and I've never had any doubt about wanting to breastfeed but I keep reading about all different difficulties women have had and how hard it is at first and I'm really discouraged and don't know what the best (and least expensive) way to learn about it would be. If anyone can help I'd be eternally great full!
At first it was really easy because i was giving everything I had to keep my son healthy and alive, he was born premature and it was a very easy thing to do. It became harder and harder when I became extra tired, I wasn't sleeping as good as I was supossed to. I was awake most of the night making sure my son was breathing fine and he didn't have any problem. I became so obssesed with the idea of my son not being able to survive. As a first time mom, having a son born premature and having no family in my new country home at all, I found myseld doing extra work and putting extra presure on myself, even though my husband offered several times to help me with house work and cooking, I refused because I thought that was my dutie. I got exhausted and I only had enough energy to breastfeed for 5 months, then I stopped. And I wish I could go back in time and just dedicate my time to breastfeed my baby and nap instead of cleaning and keeping everything clean. It would have been better if I could have rest more in that way I would have been able to give more of myself to my loved Nolan. Breastfeeding was a challenge and it became easy when my son got better at it. We were a great team until I stopped.